Who Said Cowgirls Don't Cry? Still Modeling at 50...In Memory of My Father 1/31/2010 RIP Dad

Six years ago today my father passed away.  My dad was pretty much my everything.  I have a mom and two older sisters but I've always been more like my father,  so when my parents went their seperate way's I choose to live with my father.  Both my parents are from Texas  my dad was a Cowboy from San Angelo, Texas.  But I was born and raised in Orange, Ca on a horse ranch in a country style home.   But being the daughter of a Cowboy and all my dad always made sure I had a good pair cowboy boots and a hat growing up.  It was just part of his culture and he passed down to me.   My dad always wore his cowboy attire til the day he died.    

 I love the Old West, Cowboys and the Country.  It's part of what makes unique as a country and gives us that Americana charm that the whole world tries to duplicate.    Here's me sporting my cowgirl attire and staying true to who I am.  I love God, nature, horses, my puppy and I don't mind getting my hands or clothes dirty if it means I get to spend time outdoors. 

This my "Magnum"  Watch Out Derek Zoolander!  

Cowgirls Don't Cry Dedicated To My Dad RIP 1/31/2010

Here's a photo of me and my Cowboy Dad I was around 14 or 15 here and I made this matching shirt and skirt for me and my dad in home ed.  As you can see from the images above not much has changed.  

She's Got Legs...What 50 Looks Like To Me and In My Mind.

Well to be honest I don't really run around dressed like this but when my friend asked me if I want to do some photos I ran and pulled this little summer frock out of my closest which I would normally wear with flat sandals in the  summer time.  But I wanted to document my legs that use to be a great asset to me when I was modeling on the Cat Walk around the world in my youth and they are the last relic on my body that I'm still proud of.  

Fortunately my friend let just be the ham that I am for his camera 

so here I am serving up a little 80's for you. 

Well at least in my mind I still feel like that girl down below but my body tells me other wise.  I get tired a little easier then I use too now a days.  But I'm still enjoying life an embracing who I am.

Still Modeling At 50

Me in Milan, Italy circa 1996

My International Modeling Career

Has It Really Been Half A Century? Well Here I Am Sporting My Gray Hair and Wearing My Grey Dress Still Modeling at 50

So I have friends that are photographers and every now and then I get asked if I will pose for them and being the ham I am I say why not?  Plus I have a story tell and hopefully these images will help express it.  My message is pretty basic.  It goes  like this, embrace who you are and learn to be comfortable in your own skin and don't ever feel like  you have to go under a knife to alter your appearance to feel good about yourself or to be accepted by others.  My philosophy is if people don't like me by now then they probably never will but I will keep being me no matter what.  I have had some negative feed back for refusing to dye my hair but I don't care what people think.  They should  love me for who   I am not for what I look like.   Stay true to yourself because it's who your are in the inside that matters.  As we all know beauty fades and one thing is for sure, we all age sooner or later so why not do it gracefully.  

 I don't always work in trees but when I do...

 Here's Looking At You!

 Here I am  modeling in the street hoping I don't get hit by a car.

I love to spin and twirl around, the photographer probably not so much but I like the energy that movement give to an image.  What do you think?

Jean Marshall Classic Female Model

Let The Gray Hair Begin! How I Went Gray In One Year by Ditching The Dye.

This is a photo of me taken last year in early March 2015.  I had decided to finally stop dying my hair in January 2015 after 20 years of enduring my hair coloring rituals.   The fact is I simply hate the process, the use of chemicals, the mess and what it does to the texture of my hair.  I have naturally curly hair but by dying my hair I lose a lot of my curls and to be honest, I Like My Curls.  I wanted to go gray sooner but society sort of  dictated to me that I should look a certain way and that I was still to young to have gray hair and I needed to look a certain way.  I use to ask myself, who am I fooling? It's so obvious that my gray roots are already coming out after 4 just days from dying my hair.   

 I'm the type of person who has always felt comfortable in my own skin and having processed hair didn't make me feel comfortable.  Doing anything to myself that I wasn't born with makes me uncomfortable. For example I don't have tattoos, I hardly ever wear nail polish and I did not jump on the breast augmentation train back in the late 80's till present time.  Not that any of that is bad, it's just  not for me.   

Honestly, I think  the fact that I decided to stop dying my hair makes other people more uncomfortable for me then it does for myself.  I've had a couple of guy friends tell  me my hair looks bad and I need to dye it.  But I think we have been so brain washed by media and society on how we are suppose to look like that it's just not normal to embrace aging anymore.  Or maybe they are afraid if they are seen with me it will  make them look older too. ;-) Either way  I don't want to try to look younger, every person I see that tries to look younger, looks like an older person trying to look young again and it  make them look even older to me.  Does that make sense?  Bottom line it's a vicious cycle.   I really don't care what other people think about my appearance.  I just want to be me and if I age a little in the process I'm okay with that because it's me and I am staying true to myself and who I am.